An Open Letter To My Crush

Hi Crush, (I could have written “Babe/Sexy Lady”)
Thank you so much for existing. I was getting pretty jaded there for a second and then you came along to cast a big shining light on my life. I don’t even care if we actually hook up (well, sort of). I’m just happy that you’re there.

I don’t know you that well(but I want to !!), which is kinda great because it allows me to run wild with my imagination. Maybe you are the kind of person who likes to hold hands. May be you like lilies. I really have no idea. I like not knowing. It lets me create a pretty picture of you and I having picnics, cooking pakodas together, kissing under streetlights, getting cosy on a Sunday afternoon, getting stoned and listening to records when it’s raining, and going grocery shopping for juice and vegetables. All of these things are possible in my head. You could be this person.

Crushes are a wonderful thing. Everyone responds to them in the same way with this childlike sense of excitement and wonder. You can be 60 and still feel a smile develop when you’re listening to “Hey Shona” because you get it and it gets you.
You represent possibility, or Hope, a possibility of change and romance, a hope of giving me something I’ve been craving for so long. And you don’t even know it! You are just sitting there being cute and pretty and crushworthy, not even aware of the joy you have been giving me. If you knew, maybe you would be really creeped out or maybe you’d realize you felt the same way about me. I won’t know until I actually do something about it.
Right ?

Therein lies the dilemma of having a crush. Do you actually want to act on it? Do you want to give them your phone number and resign yourself to feeling miserable until they finally text you? Sometimes it’s fun to just have the crush.You can just breathe easier in fantasy, where gravity never wins. I just need you to be there and be whoever I want you to be in my mind. It’s not always about actually seeing if you can get into a relationship with your crush. Sometimes they’re just there to make everything easier for you and become the highlight of your day. They’re there to make you feel younger and happier and silly. They add brighter colors to an otherwise drab period of your life. They add fresh oxygen to your otherwise stale-inhaled air-conditioned air.
So I don’t think I’m going to do anything about it. But you are free to guess all this and fall in love with me ! But I think I’m just going to let it be. I’m going to keep you as my dream person and not have reality ruin anything. Don’t think of this as a sad thing. You’ll be the crush who will never be able to crush me. God bless you my dear.

Inspired By Mr. O'Connell